Monthly Archives: November 2010

Oh hey there. I’m glad you’re back. I guess that means you’re not mad about the trick I played on you? Wait, you didn’t know it was a trick? YOU DIDN’T CLICK ON THE LINK?! Hold on, go click on the link, I’ll wait.

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Ah, welcome back! Happy now? Well, I’m sure you ladies out there are disappointed. ZING! I digest…

So what’s new in my world? Well, I’m just finishing up my fourth week at my new job. Things are going really well so far. At least I think they’re going well. Hopefully those around me agree. It’s weird being new. I know I’m a good worker but I just need everyone else to know it RIGHT NOW. I want to wear my old boss’s letter of recommendation around my neck. LOOK AT ME, SOMEONE WROTE THIS ABOUT ME! I’M AWESOME! Like, if I make the slightest mistake I freak out (inside my head) OMG THEY’RE GONNA FIRE ME AND MY LIFE WILL BE OVER. Meanwhile, I’ve just been here a month. I just need to simma da.

I bought a month’s worth of match.com. I had five unread messages in my inbox (you can’t read messages unless you’re a paid member) and I finally caved to the temptation. Two were promising, three were from who I can only assume to be extras from The Walking Dead.

Speaking of The Walking Dead, great show right?

I’m putting Good Omens (the book by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett that Nathan recommended) down for a bit. I know that’s never a good sign, but I promise to pick it up again. I was enjoying the first third of it with Crowley and Aziraphale, but they’ve pretty much disappeared and it’s just become so damn dry. After a long day of work I need something seriously fun to read and this just isn’t doing it. I think the main problem is that this is a book that needs to be read at long lengths. Not a chapter at a time like I do on the train. So I definitely will finish it over the holidays when I have more time. As for now, I’m reading Joss Whedon’s Astonishing X-Men series. It’s exactly what I need on the train. Sorry Nathan, don’t hate me!

The Green Lantern trailer came out and it looks really awful. Whoever thought of using a CGI suit should be shot. From a cannon. Into the sun. And that line by Blake Lively. Really? And she’s a fighter pilot? Really?

Lastly, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows comes out this weekend and I cannot wait! It’s gonna be so good. My only concern is that it will be half a movie. I know there will obviously be a cliffhanger, but I’d like to be able to watch this on its own years from now. “Hey, which Harry Potter do you want to watch?” “Let’s watch Deathly Hallows.” “Part one or two?” “One!” Wouldn’t that be fantastic? Oh, and in that scenario I’m talking to myself because I’ll die sad and alone, found three weeks later, half eaten by wild dogs.

Anyone see Harry Potter yet? How is it?

So there’s another reason I haven’t been blogging much lately. My job hasn’t been the only life changing experience I’ve been going through. There’s something I’ve been struggling with for a while and I didn’t want to put it out into the world until the wheels were completely in motion. But after attending a few sessions with the new group I’ve joined, I’m finally ready to come out as an ex-gay. There I said it.

I realize a lot of you guys aren’t going to approve, but this is something I’ve been struggling with for a while and really want to do. I guess you can say being 29 and never having been in a serious relationship has really had an effect one me. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of not having a companion at my side. I’m tired of making my life harder for myself by choosing this lifestyle that just isn’t working for me.

So I’ve been getting more involved at my church and have been attending these sessions on weekends for people who are going through the same situation as me, and it has been an extremely rewarding experience. For years, like most of you, I’d be repulsed by the stories of ex-gay therapy. To hear about the abuse that happens at these places, and how they make those transitions harder for those involved is disgusting. But it isn’t like that here. The only words I can use to describe it are warm and inviting. And I’m not saying the path I’m going down is right for everyone. But it’s right for me, and it’s the choice I want to make.

So how does this affect my blog? Not much. I never really blogged about dating much anyway. At the least, now that this is off my chest I’m hoping to blog more. Thank you for your patience and understanding through this transition. For more information about ex-gay transitioning and the program I’m in, CLICK HERE.